i think i really need to blog now. although there's a pile of hmwrk waiting for me to finish.

know how people always say "shi jie mo re". when? in actual fact, if i tell you its tomorrow, would you believe me? nah. cause human being always believe in scientific reports but imagine *touchwood* if one met with an accident the next day, wouldn't that just be the "shi jie mo re" for that person? and how do people always say "if i could", "if i had knew earlier"...

crap

ok for the actual thing.
i was on the way home just now and i decided to accompany yuhui to the interchange and i took 109 home instead of the usuals. so happily, i got onto the bus, thinking if i would meet some ice-cream uncle ltr so that i can buy one.
so the bus ride went smoothly till it came to the junction when it kept to the right lane, and was waiting to turn to hougang point. the queeue was so long and i was like "can hurry up anot..", then when the bus was turning, it suddenly steered to the left and "BAM!". the impact was so hard that i was totally in shock for the moment. for the 1st few seconds, i didn't even dare open my eyes. it was really luckly that nothing happened to me, but when i turned to my left, the auntie sitting there was bleeding on the head. she looked at me and said "wo you mei you shi? hen tong hen tong.." i told her that she was bleeding and the bus driver saw it too. the bus driver told her to relax and that he will be calling an ambulance.
i was totally expressionless at that moment. you could say i was traumatised. after i sat down and start trying to breathe properly to calm myself down, the tears started flowing out. don't ask me why, i don't know. i got down the bus and walked home. i called clar and luckily she was there to hear me talk.

god damn the lorry driver who beat the red light and luckily the bus driver did steer to the left or else the lorry would have just crash right into the bus and i wouldn't be blogging here now. here out to all drivers and going-to-be-drivers, DON'T EVER BEAT THE LIGHTS! i don't care if you're freaking late or whatsoever. do you know that the impact on any particular someone may be so huge that it may take some time to even forget.

this incident has really made me think about alot of stuffs. to friends around me, i really treasure you guys and i want all of you to know that. and it may be inconvinient to write certain stuffs here, but yes, you still mean alot to me. at that moment of time, ironically, the 1st person i thought of was you. but yea so?



and now, one unit next block is on fire.
i can't take it anymore.